The forest where the northern wolf sleeps

Paradox Part II - The Television Program

2008-06-06T06:41:00.000-07:00

PARADOX
The Television Program

The words echoed loudly & repeatedly inside the mind
until the sound of an alarm overpowered the yearning voice.
Morning was here, grateful to the breakfast given by the state,
The television was turned on, & an execution was shown live.

A young convicted man was sentenced to death by firing squad
for having subversive documents, he was pronounced guilty.
Begged to the reapers a beamed last line before catching bullets.
"Oh God, please forgive them, for they did not know..." & then the shots.

The great leader appeared in the screen, holding a thick black book.
He pointed out that it is the primary cause of division.
Tore a page, made a smoking pipe out of it, & raised his pipe.
The audience rejoiced & sang in unison the hymns of the state.

Nothing new was seen on television, so it was then turned off.
Finished breakfast in a hurry, stormed the school like a freight train.
Along the way, words in the last dream came to mind once again.
Are they figments of imagination or are they really true?

There is a friend, who might truly listen, maybe he knows them.
When told about the dream, he laughingly dismissed the reverie.
Was finally deciding to forget the dream when class started.
Pout.

Paradox Part I - The Dream

2008-06-05T06:28:00.000-07:00

I'll start my poem series entitled "Paradox". This poem series was created due to an inspiration caused by the length of "Thick as a Brick" by Jethro Tull which is actually a very long song lasting for 48+ minutes. Hope you enjoy this piece & the succeeding parts.

PARADOX
The Dream

Maybe you will listen to this, maybe you will just ignore.
Or maybe you will find some things that you will someday explore.
Whatever the case, these words will come out naked in the light.
They will never be hindered by anyone, nor by self-made sight.

Look all around you, confusing things outnumber conscious minds!
Futile minds hide the truth in a place no one actually finds.
Self-satisfaction is the new fashion, Purpose brought to the bin.
Intangibles serve as lullabies, while tangibles make desperate minds keen.

Look at that thinker, he already does not know what is true.
Even his knowledge of not knowing he does not have a clue.
Without hesitation he jumps off a building testing his doubt.
Death quickly grabbed his entirety, his last words beamed in a shout.

Look at that person, now he speaks of equality & tolerance!
But he speaks of faith as intolerant, nothing but a nuisance.
Look how he argues his point with contradiction as side dish.
He is not making sense though inquiring minds he seems to fish.

See how total skepticism works? It comes to no truth nor lies.
Yet the effort to be impartial makes it really smell nice.
See how people are willing to be confused time & again.
While rotting.

To The Secret State

2008-05-13T20:23:00.000-07:00

Victory, order, magnificence are what you show to us,
yet they are only facets of the mask you are still wearing.
Hidden beneath the mask are fresh scars of oppression & fear
of your people living under your democratic system.

Hatred to some nations is what they plant in innocent hearts.
They fill up your people's minds with lies about your great leader.
Freedom to have faith is now in chains, unable to express.
They force your people to trust a being that is only dust.

How long will your sufferings last? When will the spilling of blood end?
Is it until all of your people are exterminated
that will make the philosophy of self-reliance crumble?
Is it until your infernal dynasty is overthrown?

Know this: There is a God, & He has heard your cries every night.
He does not rejoice in the sufferings of His true believers.
Soon you will be liberated from the oppressor's claws by grace
& once again, eternal light will be seen by your people.

Oh how your people long for the South, & the South longs for you!
They yearn for that day when the parallel wall will be torn down
& when the race of your people will be more reunified!
But now, the barrier landscape is still full of land mines & guards.

Hope this reaches you, if you can understand the passages.
I still hope.

To Those Who Are Left Behind

2008-04-24T22:33:00.000-07:00

Ships

sailboats

hovercrafts

& those people

that used to be here

will be missed so dearly.

Now they are so far away

that even the mind does not know

where they are, & what happened to them.

Uncertainty now falls on those left out.

Would destination be paradise or hell?

Maybe goals were set, but doubt still is in the air.

If it becomes too powerful, it results in fear.

If fear is extreme, it cripples the determination

to move on, but there is Loneliness serving as reminder

to press on, & as a result, the mind is torn between the two.

A harsh battle starts within, Confusion is the new sovereign king.

He rules with an iron scepter, & he causes decay of held hope.

Chaos is the essence of his laws, Peace is then sentenced to death.

The entirety of being is chained, unless the Rescuer comes.

He holds the real freedom, He directs our totality.

His will is always supreme, it is unchangeable.

A planned destruction cannot be grabbed from His hands.

Even He makes us believe, not by our might.

The only thing left to do is to trust.

Move on, without looking at the fear.

Ceasing is like a hungry beast,

devouring those in his path.

Loneliness is still there,

But there is that light

that continues

its guidance

& love

that...

is real, incomparable, & everlasting.

It's been more than a year already

2008-04-22T00:45:00.000-07:00

...since I last updated this blog. Oh well. These are few of my poems to make up for the times I missed. ^_^

Fire & Ice

Two elements are in opposition.
One brings heat, other is in absorption
of that thing which brings vibration within,
then the potential to move becomes thin.

A colder ice tends to absorb more heat
from something hotter though not every bit.
When it envelops, chances become less
for something hotter found in its wholeness.

Pressure can help, not if there is less heat,
Especially inside a certain sheet.
A sheet of thick ice, unless there is force,
A force so great that shatters it to scores.

Many doubt the outside is existing,
when in fact they are hallucinating.
Numbed by the cold their vision is tainted
by mere illusions their mind has granted.

They know little about the Light outside,
The One that serves to the dark world a guide.
Lord, let Your axe of grace shatter the ice!
That they may tremble & be in surprise!

That will bring them to genuine repentance!

The Mirage & The Shadow Of The Oasis

All alone, was walking under the heat of the sun so fierce.
Sight of a desired oasis greatly delighted the mind.
The journey was then narrowed down to the path that led to it.
When the place was seen, everything turned out to be heaps of sand.

Then Agony set in, dreams started to shatter to pieces.
Pessimism blanketed the eyes with tears a thousandfold.
Losing life then began to be a desired place to go to.
This was asked: "What will serve as a poison, the sands or the sun?"

Then suddenly, someone in the wind whispered, "Come, follow Me."
The wind was followed for days & nights, never ceasing to rest.
The wind soon died out, which left a landscape still full of high dunes.
That hopeless night, being choked by the sands seemed necessary.

The sands soon engulfed the helpless body unrelentlessly
Until a bright light shone within the sands that caused revival.
The light came from a book, which was then grabbed, & the sands gave way,
& the moon, along with the sky & wind, presented themselves.

The book was read, & there was the map to the true oasis.
Nothing else to believe, the book was believed wholeheartedly.
After days & nights of trusting, a shadow of paradise
Promised to give a new life, although so far away.

My Top 107 LSS songs of 2006

2007-01-25T23:10:00.000-08:00

Sorry it took THAT long. LOL. Anyways, here's mine.

1. "When The Truth Rings Out" - Hanover Saints
2. "Fight To Win" - The Deal
3. "The Witch & The Lion" - Narnia
4. "Book Of Secrets" - Balance Of Power
5. "Color Blind" - Michael Sweet
6. "Human Sacrifice" - Vengeance Rising
7. "Let All Mortal Flesh Keep Silence" - Frost Like Ashes
8. "Hold Fast" - Flatfoot 56
9. "Sanctuary" - Jacobs Dream
10. "Everwinter" - Immortal Souls
11. "Nothing To Lose" - One-21
12. "Blow & Go" - One Bad Pig
13. "On Legendary" - Further Seems Forever
14. "Light At The End Of The Tunnel" - Ajalon
15. "We Are" - Number One Gun
16. "Progress" - Crashdog
17. "Goodtimes" - Lugnut
18. "The Reign" - Stryper
19. "Looked For In The First Place" - Dear Ephesus
20. "This Present Darkness" - Deliverance
21. "Playing With Fire" - Detritus
22. "Joe's Sick" - Slick Shoes
23. "Do & Don't" - MxPx
24. "JW" - Huntingtons
25. "The Truth" - Dogs Of Peace
26. "Jesus Eternal" - Fold Zandura
27. "Let That Be Enough" - Switchfoot
28. "Stand Up" - Petra
29. "Say" - Sleeping At Last
30. "Ignite" - Living Sacrifice
31. "Fistful Of Sand" - Five Iron Frenzy
32. "Moving Underground" - The Dingees
33. "I Will" - Sonicflood
34. "Invert The Inverted Cross" - Horde
35. "Terminate Damnation" - Mortification
36. "Fight For What Is Right" - Headnoise
37. "Bobby & Susie" - Officer Negative
38. "The One I'm Waiting For" - Relient K
39. "Does Anybody Hear Her" - Casting Crowns
40. "Faith Like That" - Jonah33
41. "Hold It Up To The Light" - Smalltown Poets
42. "Don't Wanna Know" - Lloyd
43. "Eileen's Song" - Burlap To Cashmere
44. "Calibrate The Virus" - Winter Solstice
45. "Open" - No Innocent Victim
46. "Oblivion" - Project 86
47. "Breed The Tyrants" - Sorrowstorm
48. "Change Inside Me" - MercyMe
49. "Wake The Dead" - Comeback Kid
50. "The Way I Feel" - 12 Stones
51. "Take Me Away" - Sarah Kelly
52. "Behind Me Lies Another Fallen Soldier" - As I Lay Dying
53. "Never Gonna Be As Big As Jesus" - Audio Adrenaline
54. "It's Dangerous Business Walking Out Your Front Door" - Underoath
55. "The Seventh Star" - Seventh Star
56. "Substance" - Haste The Day
57. "Worlds Apart" - Jars Of Clay
58. "Cheese Whiz Craze" - Don't Know
59. "Love Your Enemies" - Smiley Kids
60. "Tale Of The Ballydowse" - Ballydowse
61. "Jigsaw" - The Insyderz
62. "Slipshod" - Skratchline
63. "Gearhead" - War Rocket Ajax
64. "Something Must Break" - Ninety Pound Wuss
65. "Stop The Hate" - Twiceborn
66. "Homesick" - Value Pac
67. "Silence Is A Weakness" - Fire Engine Red
68. "Who Got The Meaning?" - The Elms
69. "Bloodsucker Pt. II" - As Cities Burn
70. "Return Of The Revolution" by O.C. Supertones
71. "Blood On The Tracks" - The Redemption Song
72. "Wrong Is Wrong" - Hangnail
73. "Rest Assured" - Dogwood
74. "Scarab" - xDISCIPLEx A.D.
75. "The Best Of Me" - Bloody Sunday
76. "Cost Of The Cause" - The CafFiends
77. "I'm So Sick" - Flyleaf
78. "Change The World (Last Ones)" - Anberlin
79. "Free To Conquer" - Subseven
80. "Show Me Your Glory" - Third Day
81. "Sink-N-Swim" - Plumb
82. "This Fragile Breath" - Todd Agnew
83. "Decay" - Indwelling
84. "High" - Calibretto 13
85. "Roses Are Red" - The Cootees
86. "Buy My Record" - Neon Cross
87. "It's A Jungle Out There" - Mastedon
88. "Alone Together" - The 77s
89. "Infected" - Demon Hunter
90. "Burn" - Ultimatum
91. "Kiss Me" - Sixpence None The Richer
92. "Viva Satellite" - Skypark
93. "Shine" - Newsboys
94. "War Within" - Mortal Treason
95. "Sentence Served" - Istra
96. "A Monument Encased In Ash" - The Showdown
97. "Bad Marriage" - Craig's Brother
98. "The Coldest Heart" - The Classic Crime
99. "Take Cover" - Acceptance
100. "The Hour Of Decision" - Alove For Enemies
101. "Aimless Endeavor" - Beloved
102. "Forever Yours" - Blank Logic
103. "Another Day/Another War" - Blessed By A Broken Heart
104. "History Maker" - Delirious?
105. "Fell In Love With The Game" - Blindside
106. "Hearts Of The Innocent" - Kutless
107. "The Space In Between Us" - Building 429

Whew... Well, that's all from me. ^_^

105 Symptoms to know that you're a Filipino Christian punk-head if...

2006-10-19T23:55:00.000-07:00

Again. haha. Factoids you have to watch out ^_^. & May I emphasize again:
Some of the things here are only my viewpoints. So don't flood me with hate comments or something. This is posted here for fun & enlightenment purposes only. Again I do not intend here to generalize things. Just read & enjoy. ehehe.
1. Importantly, You believe that Jesus died for you so that you will be saved through the fires of Hell, & you have accepted Him as your personal Lord & Savior.
2. You think the best band that came out of Christian punk is HANOVER SAINTS.
3. You dream of your band having bassist that aren't that good in playing bass guitars.
4. You became the scourge of most Christian Conservatives & also Christian Fundies.
5. You believe that anarchy is a prison, so you shout one of One Bad Pig's songs from the album "A Christian Banned" to all the Anarchists out there.
6. You can chant 8-12 lines in just under a minute. Take note that each line must contain 20 syllables.
7. You're not gay, & you abhor homosexuality, because the Bible forbids it. But you're not a homophobe.
8. You dream of learning how to play bagpipes.
9. You're singing "When The Truth Rings Out" by Hanover Saints while taking a bath, & at times you're being heard by the next-door neighbor who will be really horrified by the crashing sounds that you're making inside the bathroom.
10. You also listen to bands like Kutless & Jars Of Clay on rock stations & also Christian stations on radio, but you perform a circle pit when you heard The Deal's songs over the radio.
11. You can say the word "Oi!" with a perfectly Scottish accent.
12. You know that Colin of The Deal drinks milk in their "Richard Bachmann" video, so you do the same by singing the same song while buying fresh milk at the grocery of a nearby SM branch, causing some people to frown or laugh at you while you do that.
13. You have a guitar, & you use only a half of it, i.e. only the base strings.
14. You've broken one of your electric fans in the house while circle-pitting with the song J.C.H.C. by Officer Negative.
15. You prefer the old Squad Five-O than the new, compromised one.
16. You prefer the old MxPx than the new one.
17. You've managed to collect most of Crashdog's songs through subscription to christiandl.com.
18. You've been demised hearing that Johnny Cash was dead three years ago.
19. You think Christian progressive is OK, but Christian progressive punk is much better (Craig's Brother for example)
20. You've known alredy that Christian punk started in the U.K., & you've been dreaming to get 70's Christian punk CDs at Crossrhythms (Bill Mason Band, 100% Proof, Giantkiller, Ishmael United, etc.)
21. You've been dreaming of starting a Christian Old School Punk & Hardcore band in the Philippines, nevertheless of the music (Old School Punk & Hardcore) which is underground & only familiar with the few folks currently spread around the Philippines, mostly around Bulacan. 22. You've composed a 40-second song (with a lot of lyrics) because you've been impressed by the song "Sing Along Song" by Officer Negative.
23. You know that two of the fastest punk rock bands in America are Christian (Lugnut, 90 lb. wuss)
24. You've been dreaming to get a copy of Lugnut's debut album, Like The Dickens, which has 17 tracks clocking the whole album at only 22 minutes.
25. You've also been dreaming to get hold of all 90 lb. wuss albums at christiandl, but gotten really frustrated honestly when they weren't still re-uploading them up.
26. You've also dreamt of coming to Cornerstone to see Ballydowse, Psalters, or Headnoise perform.
27. You're a Relient K fan.
28. You frown at anyone who thinks Thiessen's gay just because they toured with Simple Plan & Good Charlotte at a Warped Tour.
29. You know that good drumming skills are needed in punk rock, but also you know that too much complexity in drums produces jazz music.
30. You're not comfortable really with jazz music.
31. You like downloading some of the mp3s of the songs of your favorite punk bands in free downloading sites.
32. You know about more than five possible downloading sites of the Christian punk song mp3s you desire to save into your computer.
33. You're at times dancing to The Dingees' "Leave The Kids Alone"
34. You've been dreaming to go to Puerto Rico to see Clear Convictions perform.
35. You turned the volume of your radio into maximum when you heard One-21's "Morality" was playing there.
36. You also contemplate a band name with the word "The" on it, for example, The Redeemed, The Oppressed, The Crushed, etc.
37. Your composed lyrics will probably be more about the experiences that you have as a Christian.
38. You exchanged "J.C.H.C." for your term "cool" in your everyday conversations with anyone.
Example conversation:
FCP (Filipino Christian Punk-head): Have you watched "Passion Of The Christ"?
Anyone: YEAAAHHH!!! THAT WAS AWESOME!!!
FCP: That's so... J.C.H.C.!!!
39. You're probably one of the tablespoonful FCP's here in the country.
40. You know those who think that FCPs are losers return their loser comment to themselves because you know by their judging of Christian Punk is lame, oxymoronic, & plain stupid just shows their box they don't wanna go out from.
41. You think mixing genres is OK for you because you know The Dingees & The Insyderz did it. 42. You don't feel down because by the grace of God you still believe that you can have a band that has songs which equal the speed of Lugnut's & 90 lb. wuss'.
43. You have a harsh & husky voice that you acquired by singing One-21's "Nothing To Lose" five times a day.
44. You also use Seventh Star songs to clear up your throat.
45. Your dream music video is shot with your hairstyle that's mohawk.
46. You think that being a straight-edger (SxE) is cool.
47. You still dream of having an old school Punk & Hardcore song with a Christian Tagalog lyrics. 48. You think that an old school punk & hardcore Christian Tagalog lyric is awesome because it has also a forceful tone that can at times rival German language in punk music.
49. You've been dreaming to hear a sample of Jesus Skins, a German Christian Skinhead punk band.
50. You've rejoiced seeing a Dogwood video being played at 1cubed.
51. You've been planning to shoot a music video in Golden Acres.
52. You know that misconceptions that spring with Christian punk usually are logically fallacious.
53. You always correct anyone who mistakes you for a pagan.
54. You know the "rebellion" being used in some of Christian Punk Bands' lyrics refer to the rebellion to the worldly system ^_^.
55. You know that #54 is portrayed in Fire Engine Red's "Don't Be Like The World".
56. You detest the "Cornato" hand.
57. You're not against doing the Mosh-pit & the Circle-pit.
58. You know that there's rebuke in the Scripture.
59. You've been planning to use rebuking elements in one of your punk songs.
60. You have "J.C.H.C." as your alias.
61. You know what J.C.H.C. means.
62. You're not racist.
63. You're a Creationist pilosopher.
64. You also plan to include Apologetics in the lyrics of your songs.
65. You dream of starting your album with the sound of many people conversing similar to that of MxPx's "Delores' & Hanover Saints' "The Promised Land"
66. Everyone knows who your favorite bands are by reading your own rules about bein an FCP.
67. You dream of being a mascot.
68. You want to learn Scottish Tap-dancing.
69. You envision having The Insyderz's songs in the Praise & Worship sessions at your church.
70. You think that having a girl in the vox is pretty cool, just like what Headnoise did.
71. You think Synthesizers are kinda cool in punk music.
72. You're influenced musically by those bands that are being played in Time Bomb every Wednesday night at NU 107.
73. You're also listening to emo-punk bands like Antiskeptic & Ace Troubleshooter.
74. You're dismayed at the lack of Christian punk albums bein featured at Christiandl.com.
75. You're aware that at times you hate melodic music, at times you're not.
76. You know that you'll go to the place you've known already if you feel guilty reading #75 but lie to people about it.
77. You're also aware that most of the time you like melody in old school punk & hardcore songs.
78. You've composed songs that have one-word titles.
Example: "Rally", "Revolt", "Revolution", etc. are ideal titles of the songs for your dream album.
79. The only exciting show for you on NU 107 is Against The Flow.
80. You've given the radio show mentioned in #79 a CD which contained one of your Christian punk rock compilations.
81. You're a closet Christian black metal rocker, but Hanover Saints is still your preferred band.
82. You're dreaming of a band that has a music which can rival Black Flag.
83. Christian new school hardcore rock music is also OK for you.
84. You still mosh/circle-pit at Dodgin' Bullets' "Tomorrow The World Will Change".
85. You headbang to Bloody Sunday's songs.
86. You've bought a No Innocent Victim tape at an SM store for just 60 pesos.
87. You thought Sanitary Department sounded like Sex Pistols.
88. You thought One-21 sounded like The Exploited or Rancid.
89. Crashdog is so awesome for you.
90. You have no trouble singing Lugnut's "82".
91. You've composed very short songs.
92. You shouted "Chux Wife!" during a very quiet departmental examination.
93. You never fail to mosh-pit with yourself while singing any Hanover Saints song.
94. You're actually moshing/circle-pitting with yourself inside your house while listening to any Hanover Saints song.
95. You thought that the Levites are Straight-Edge punks because of their lifestyle.
96. You always grab a straw after ordering a meal at Jollibee (Jollibee is Philippines' answer to McDonald's) & then raise it up for everyone to see, & then you shout, "WE'RE PONY SOLDIERS, JUST LIKE I TOLD YA" & then perform an improvised moshpit/circle-pit with yourself to the already irritated people around you.
97. You already are a skinheaded guy.
98. You know that drummers get the major workout in gigs.
99. Your composed lyrics are very straight-forward... no big words are found within the lyrics of your songs.
100. You believe that MxPx + Slick Shoes = Side Walk Slam.
101. You have a compilation CD that contained 31 songs because of War Rocket Ajax's songs.
102. You insist that Christian old school punk & hardcore is musically different than all that "seckie junk."
103. Drugs , Sex, & Alcohol are not J.C.H.C.
104. You're always listening to Hanover Saints.
105. You're bein judged by Christian conservatives & fundies as a drug addict, because you admire "Devil's music." Because many drug addicts according to them listen to Punk music...

That's all for now hee hee :D

The perils of having computer shops around you which have pseudo-DSL connections

2006-09-11T23:36:00.000-07:00

Well... I can't imagine how many are they... but beware of those computer shops that say, "Oh, we've got a DSL connection!" & yet the downloading speed is 4-5 kbps. Yes. & I've shelled out maybe hundreds of pesos trying to be patient with the downloading speeds of these cafes. Sigh. & yeah, you'll ask things like, "Why is your internet connection like this? It took me 4 hours to download a file!" & they will answer things like, "Sir, we shortened the bandwidth speed because of some guys here playing online games." I've got nothing against online gamers, but to simply post on their doors, "We have a shorter bandwidth for you internet users." will simply make things much easier & less complicated. Sometimes I want to ask the world, "Where are the internet cafes that are FOR internet users?" Maybe they all became game stations. Or maybe they're like the next endangered species in the Philippine soil. Where are those internet cafes that prioritize people who check their e-mails, downloading some stuff from the internet, etc.? Maybe this post is kinda shallow, but hey, if you've got some important things to download for example on the internet & these deceiving shops will say the "Oh sir, we've got a short bandwidth" thing to you, then you must think twice about that shop. In the first place they're there to provide internet service for internet users. That's all. God Bless you all...

The Anthem, The War Cry, whatever you call it...

2006-08-14T21:56:00.000-07:00

I heard this song by Flatfoot 56 called "The Ode". It sounded to me like some soldiers were singing. Oh well... the lyric is short.

Jump on aboard young bonny lad. We'll fight like our fathers before,and we won't stop until freedom's found in this awful, bloody war, We proudly raise the colors of our flag. We'll fight for honor and our God, And we will fight the evil foe who now has sword in hand.

When I heard some of the songs from Flatfoot 56's sophomore album, it was like being taken to Scotland to eat some haggis or something. Nevertheless, they rock. Old school hardcore/punk from the 80's meets a bagpiper from a school band. & oh, they have released a new album, called Knuckles Up. This album is entitled Waves of War. I think a Filipino band who will incorporate indigenous elements or instruments to old school punk rock will surely make a new scene within a scene that's bein plagued by alternative rock love songs & frustrations, etc. Flatfoot 56 is one of those bands that carried British punk to the 21st century. Others maybe became frustrated because of money. Oh well... that's all for me now. SxE rules!!! Down with Anarchy & Neo-fascism!!!

Today seems like forever... but really afraid to look ahead

2006-08-11T04:39:00.000-07:00

Well this is my dilemma right now. I'm really clueless as to what really the future holds for me. I'm behind for a year, but then I'm happy. I don't know, maybe my maker provided me with overwhelming joy for a week. I answered with 95% certainty my first departmental exam in Advanced Inorganic Chemistry. It seemed as though every moment now has been taking forever. I will still be thankful though if this moment will last forever, but I don't know what the future holds for me. So there's with me the thing called "hidden panic". Maybe that's overwhelming grace. Something I didn't deserve after almost a week of not having a personal, complete, quiet time with the Lord. Maybe a God-shaped hole has started again to form within me. But really, I'm thankful for all the blessings that came to me especially those in disguise, even though during those times I forgot to be thankful. Maybe I wasn't sensitive enough to see them, or really preoccupied with other things. I'm more now of an intercessor; maybe that's where my satisfaction lies... comes along with the whole package of loving my Savior. Maybe I should stop doubting Him & start to press on to the things I really should do. Maybe I should start to come out of my box & really put into action what should be put. Well, that's all for now. Good Evening to you readers...

CCM Downloads, Forums, Thesis, A Mysterious Program & all the blah blah

2006-08-02T01:49:00.000-07:00

A monthly blog?! No way, man. I told myself. So I posted again & then here it is... oh well... First of all I would like to give my biggest appreciation to a German dude named Herbert, who has this really great passion for our already un-trusted country & even put up a site with some photos from the tourist spots here... & man was I touched by his passion for this country which is really soaked up with politics, showbiz, & poverty. How I wish more Pinoys will have the guts to put up a site similar to his on their Blogspot accounts or whatever. & If you want to visit his site, go to the Wolfsters.com links below this blogpage... with the name "Herbert". Got it? Got it. He he. There's this site I was referred to which I became a member & became overjoyed because of those whole, free album downloads of CCM bands & artists. It's on Christian Downloads & the link can be seen on the Extra Links part of this blogpage. I'm also getting preoccupied with the forums on Christianster & well... no comment... & yup... my Capsule Proposal! It's kinda undergoin another make-over so I ask for more prayers for the proposal... A mysterious program was sent to me which can read your mind by having those symbols & numbers & mathematics bein smacked down to your face like a stone. I don't know how the stuff works, but if I find out that it's of the Accuser I will delete it immediately from my briefcase. Well, who knows, maybe it's only from a really complex algorithm he he. Well... I think that's all for now... keep visitin because I may post some interesting stuff in days to come... Well... Au Revoir... God Bless you all & May the Lord's light shine on you all forever & ever... Jesus Christ is HardCore (J.C.H.C.)!!!

It's been a while... & I'm back... How time flies so fast

2006-07-20T22:31:00.000-07:00

It's been a while now since I last posted a blog. Many interesting events had come into my life just like a blink of an eye; before you know it everything had happened already. But one thing I'd been rebuked upon was my misplaced priorities... argh. & now I bear the consequences of those things. It just so happened that I've been given that much opportunity but I still didn't grab them so that I may use them for something useful. Instead, I wasted so many hours (& so many money) for that. Anyways, performances were here & there for our organization, & the people there are really tired to the bone that one was sleeping for three hours now at our tambayan (tambayan is the name given to any place in the campus which houses an organization). Chemistry boards are nearing, & my former blockmates are kinda rushing themselves (I think) to their reviewers for a full-blast frenzy for long-lost information from their old chemistry textbooks (ha ha). As for me, I'm still waiting for my Capsule proposal which has been passed two weeks ago & yet I don't have any news as of the moment because I think the professors are kinda preoccupied with some things... Oh well, I really miss my batchmates... thinking that some of them were professors already, some are working for companies, some are just bumming around, etc.... I think that's all for now... & two months from now my first anniversary of the teenage years thrown away will be celebrated, & yesterday was my S-birthday... if you know what I mean... he he...

Christian punk started making waves in U.K. in 1979

2006-06-29T00:29:00.000-07:00

Yup... Before '79 there were a few bands didn't get attention like Ishmael United & Giantkiller. & then there was Bill Mason Band, who started making waves in the punk scene in 1979 with their release, "No Sham!" (please see smaller picture) If you have some lyrics for their songs, can you please... please... please place their lyrics in my comment space... & I will be glad if you do... How I wish some site will provide some mp3s of some of the songs from these guys... Oh well. & Oh, check out also 100% Proof. They're also in the vein of 70s-80s Christian punk rock. I'm really surprised that there's this punk scene two years back before Undercover in the U.S. in 1982 released their self-titled debut album (see larger picture).
Discography:
Undercover (1982):
1. Exuse Us
2. Heal Me
3. I'll Be A Fool
4. Francine
5. It's Official
6. Turn Your Head
7. Look It Up
8. Read It In A Letter
9. Daddy-O
10. Tonight
11. Stop
12. He's In Love With You
13. I.C.U.
14. He Gives We Have
15. Dying In Love
No Sham! (1979):
1. Billy & The Rotas
2. Detectivse
3. Out On The Streets
4. I Don't Want you
5. Stand Up & Be Counted
6. Radio
7. I Got The Answers
8. Mr. G.
9. Get Inside
10. Lost Years
By the way... I got these infos from Crossrhythms.co.uk, & from the site of the Christian punk band Undercover. Well... that's all for now.

Rediscovering my youth, & back then my articles are kinda controversial.

2006-06-28T00:29:00.000-07:00

Well... I redisovered my old blogsite... I kinda posted some intersting things there back in February to March 2005. Kinda interesting to look back on those good old days where I just sit at the computer & just blasted my insights off to the blog-hopping public. Oh well... Here are just of the FCM bands I discovered that had Soundclick accounts (yup... & some of them have free mp3 downloads to boot!)... BoughtByBlood, & Ramoth Gilead. Seeing the site of Filipino Metal really puts to the world the almost-biased state of Metal scene here... the occult, atheism, etc., hackneyed themes of metal. I think it will be the most controversial thing here if somehow a Christian metal band here in the country made its way to the airwaves... I think it would be cool also if I had a band that's kinda like Mortification meets Horde plus Crimson Moonlight, & then the instrumentals will be kinda like Immortal Souls... I recently listened to "Scarab" by xDISCIPLEx A.D. in the net, & somehow the music's kinda moshable. I also like to hear some songs from No Innocent Victim's "No Compromise" album, because I've seen in some comments in Amazon.com that their style here is old school hardcore. Oh well, that's all for now, & God bless the Philippine Youth! Vi de udødelige inviterer dere til å slå dere sammen med oss...

Research proposal mania... ha ha... & other stuff about AIDS

2006-06-21T00:32:00.000-07:00

Well... I just started looking for proteins in HIV that have conserved sequences. he he. Just now. I'm really inspired by the "Wonder Drug" created by my friend through AutoDock (a molecular docking program) which inhibits the activity of HIV-2 reverse transcriptase. Yup. A potential component of the under-construction cure for the dreaded disease which most of us are very afraid of. I really want to do Molecular Docking research in my thesis because: 1. I'm really flabbergasted at the very large number of heterocyclic molecules stored in heterocycles.jp's database, & I want to make some use of some of the compounds there (many of which has no name) 2. I want to do an AIDS-related research, &, 3. I'm having a difficulty when it comes to finances. & look what I've seen... a Tat protein (TAT = Transactivating regulatory). The protein in the virus that causes it to reproduce. I don't know if I would be taking a lonely path or what, but God knows, maybe there's really an inhibitor that's not toxic. I have seen (maybe) potential analogs in the Heterocycles website, & God willing, I can propose a new inhibitor replacing the old RO 24-7429. Prayers for me, because I really need a Molecular Docking topic for my thesis & I really want to graduate next semester. I'm really clueless for a back-up topic, but I really want it to be an inhibitor proposal for another HIV protein. Well, that's all for now.

To the tune of "Wake Me Up When September Ends"

2006-06-14T02:35:00.000-07:00

Well... "Wake Me Up When Crimson Thorn Plays". With screeching unblack vocals & a Cathedral organ solo. Forgive me metalheads for posting this thing on the net, because I can't get it out of my system (I thought about it & it can't get out of my head). but if you want to kill me, maybe you'd better sit down & think about the Fifth commandment. he he.

Lengsel has come & passed
No Innocent Victim at last
Wake Me Up When Crimson Thorn Plays

like Maylene was here at last
Old Underoath sound was past
Wake Me Up When Crimson Thorn Plays

Here comes the guys again
from Stars Are Falling
Drenched in screaming much like
Becoming The Archetype

As I lay Dying sings
But Frost Like Ashes is what I sought
Wake Me Up When Crimson Thorn plays

Lengsel has come & passed
No Innocent Victim at last
Wake Me Up When Crimson Thorn plays

Screech out like Horde again
Like we did when Jay began
Wake Me Up When Crimson Thorn plays

Here comes the guys again
from Stars Are Falling
Drenched in screaming much like
Becoming The Archetype

As I lay Dying sings
but Frost Like Ashes is what I sought
Wake Me Up When Crimson Thorn plays

Lengsel has come & passed
No Innocent Victim at last
Wake Me Up When Crimson Thorn plays

Like Vengeance Rising has passed
when Roger took the evil path
Wake Me Up When Crimson Thorn plays
Wake Me Up When Crimson Thorn plays
Wake Me Up When Crimson Thorn plays

105 Symptoms to know that you're a Filipino Christian metalhead if...

2006-05-23T23:46:00.000-07:00

Well, here it is... some of the things included here have come from other people (From Lex & from a blogsite named "A Light In The Darkness")... others twitched a bit... & some, well, came from my own viewpoints & plus from the bible. Figure out which is which. ehehe. Enjoy.
Note: Again, some of the things here are only my viewpoints. So don't flood me with hate comments or something. This is posted here for fun & enlightenment purposes only. Again I do not intend here to generalize things. Just read & enjoy. ehehe.
1. Importantly, You believe that Jesus died for you so that you will be saved through the fires of Hell, & you have accepted Him as your personal Lord & Savior.
2. You think the best band that came out of Christian metal is HORDE.
3. You dream of your band having keyboards.
4. You became the scourge of most Christian Conservatives & also Christian Fundies.
5. You stress to people that what you're actually listening to is UNBLACK METAL, not Black.
6. You choose at times to screech instead of growl because you want a degree of "understandability" in your music.
7. You're not gay, & you abhor homosexuality, because the Bible forbids it. But you're not a homophobe.
8. You also want to growl at times, especially if you're doing the defecalization activity inside the comfort room.
9. You're singing "Terminate Damnation" by Mortification while taking a bath, & at times you're being heard by the next-door neighbor who will be really horrified by the vocals that you're making inside the Bathroom.
10. You also listen to bands like Kutless & Jars Of Clay on rock stations & also Christian stations on radio, but you headbang & perform an air guitar to an invisible audience when you hear Mortification songs on radio.
11. You've developed the so-called Guttural Voice.
12. You know that Old School Death Metal fans receive free pizzas.
13. You have a guitar, & you use only a half of it, i.e. only the base strings.
14. You're performing an invisible quad while singing a Blessed By A Broken Heart song.
15. You prefer the old Mortification than the new one.
16. You prefer the old UnderOath than the new one.
17. You've managed to collect all the mp3s of all the Sorrowstorm songs from their first full-length album until their sophomore EP.
18. You're still praying (& hoping) that Roger Martinez of Vengeance Rising will return to God's fold, & compose & play some new Christian thrash metal songs for everyone.
19. You think Christian progressive is OK.
20. You think Indonesian metal scene is cool because Kekal, the pioneers of Christian UnBlack metal, comes from there.
21. You headbang to Bought By Blood in the really scarce & underground Filipino Christian metal scene.
22. You've composed an 18-minute song because you're inspired by Mortification's "EnVision EvAngelene".
23. You smile at Black metal fanatics thinking Horde is "kvlt" for them, & you know that "kvlt" for them means cool.
24. You remove the t from the word "kvlt" which makes a pseudo-Norwegian word called "kvl".
25. You know that the "v" reads like oo as in cool.
26. You dreamt of coming to Norway, Sweden, & Finland to see Lengsel, Crimson Moonlight, & Immortal Souls playing.
27. You are a Stryper fan.
28. You frown at anyone who thinks Stryper's gay because you know that they started the Christian heavy metal scene way back in 1983.
29. Drum Machines are OK, but too much is Fold Zandura.
30. You listen also to Fold Zandura, but you prefer Horde more.
31. You like downloading some of the mp3s of the songs of your favorite metal bands in free downloading sites.
32. You know about more than five possible downloading sites of the Christian metal song mp3s you desire to save into your computer.
33. You're fascinated by the rhythms the band Ajalon presents.
34. You know that most Christian Swedish bands are power metal with death vocals.
35. You turned the volume of your radio into maximum when you heard Living Sacrifice's "Not Beneath" was playing there.
36. You also contemplate a band name with the suffix -icide on it, such as demonicide, satanicide, goaticide, etc.
37. Your composed lyrics will probably be more about the imminent judgement of the evildoers & also the Wrath of God that's shown in the book of Revelation.
38. You exchanged "UnBlack metal" for your term "cool" in your everyday conversations with anyone.
Example conversation:
FCM (Filipino Christian Metalhead): Have you watched "Passion Of The Christ"?
Anyone: YEAAAHHH!!! THAT WAS AWESOME!!!
FCM: That's so... UNBLACK METAL!!!
39. You're probably one of the handful FCM's here in the country.
40. You know those who think that FCMs are losers return their loser comment to themselves because you know by their judging of Christian Metal is lame & plain stupid just shows their box they don't wanna go out from.
41. You think mixing genres is OK for you because you know Kekal did it.
42. You don't feel down because by the grace of God you still believe that you can have a band that equals the musicality of bands such as Paramaecium & Aletheian.
43. You have a good voice that you acquired by singing Haste The Day songs five times a day.
44. You also use Horde songs to clear up your throat.
45. Your dream music video is shot in black & white.
46. You think that Norwegian language is cool.
47. You still dream of having an UnBlack Metal song with a Christian Tagalog lyrics.
48. You think that an UnBlack metal song with a Christian Tagalog lyric is awesome & grim because you know the language has been used in the movie Constantine.
49. You know that bein grim doesn't necessarliy mean you're bein satanic, but you know that the grimness can portray the different messages portrayed mostly in Christian metal (See #37)
50. You think that White metal is awesome, & you know what White metal is.
51. You also listen to Christian Doom metal bands like Paramaecium.
52. You know that Doom metal pertains to a musical genre & not to any lyrical content.
53. You always correct anyone who mistakes you for a pagan.
54. You invert any inverted crosses you see laying around.
55. You detest pentagrams or any satan-related symbols around you, including the "Cornato" hand.
56. You do the "alternative" to the "Cornato" hand, which is a thumb raised along with the two fingers raised (the pinkie & the index finger) while the other fingers are tucked inside the top of your palm.
57. You always remember that Folk elements in metal was never meant to make everyone happy, but in fact it was meant to be sorrow filled.
58. You know also there's sorrow in the Scripture.
59. You also know that there's gore in the Scripture, just as was prophesied about the death of Jesus in the book of Isaiah.
60. You have "Usvart" as your alias.
61. You know what Usvart means.
62. You know what the title of Horde's album means.
63. Even though you're an FCM, you can pronounce the Norwegian sentence that is written in the cover of Horde's album as though you were a pure Bokmaal speaker.
64. You know what Bokmaal is, & you are not just calling any Norwegian dialect as Norwegian.
65. You dream of starting your album with a five-second church bell sound such as with "A Church Bell Tolls Amidst The Frozen Nordic Winds" by Horde.
66. Everyone knows who your favorite bands are by reading your own rules about bein an FCM.
67. You think that the lyrics of Lengsel's songs are very emotional.
68. You think Frost Like Ashes is cool because you know that they are one of the pioneering bands that mixed death & "black" metal music, & smiles at the fact that they're Christians.
69. You envision having Of The Son's songs in the Praise & Worship sessions at your church.
70. You became overjoyed at the fact that Nicko McBrain, the long time drummer of the seckie band Iron Maiden, has become a Christian.
71. You also listen to Christian emo bands such as Dear Ephesus & Further Seems Forever, but you still prefer Horde more.
72. You mourned at the fact that the "Metal Madness" show on the only Philippine Rock music station NU 107.5 has disappeared.
73. You still believe that Kekal is cool because they're Southeast Asians like you do.
74. You also believe that bands like Zao, Norma Jean, & Demon Hunter are cool.
75. At times you hate melodic music, at times you're not.
76. You know that you'll go to the place you've known already if you feel guilty reading #75 but lie to people about it.
77. You've composed a song that has a very long title.
Example:
"The Eternal damnation of the once was, now is not, & will come up out of the Abyss and go to his destruction" is a very typical title.
78. The only exciting show for you on NU 107 is Against The Flow. But you have the recorded episode of "Metal Madness" when Pigs With Pearls were featured &, Stryper, Mortification, & Still Remains were played.
79. You're also hoping that the show "Time Bomb" on NU 107 will feature Crashdog, Officer Negative, or One Bad Pig
80. You're a closet old school Christian punk rocker, but Horde's still your preferred band.
81. You're also a Petrahead.
82. You mourned over Petra when they disbanded a few months ago.
83. You're thankful to God for Larry Norman because He used the guy to put some Scripture into contemporary music. You know that Larry's the pioneer of Contemporary Christian Music, & also Christian rock.
84. As Cities Burn is one very exceptional band for you. You're amazed by their ethereal hardcore music.
85. You're not a Christian hxc (hardcore) fan, but you're still amazed by As Cities Burn.
86. As I lay Dying is still so OK for you, even though their albums are too short for you to relax upon.
87. You dance to the song "Walk Without Limbs" by Virgin Black.
88. Crimson Thorn is very awesome for you.
89. You're singing Slechtvalk songs within 50 meters of anyone while walking across the street.
90. You have no trouble over singing Exousia's Spanish songs.
91. You think that Narnia's songs are so anime soundtrack-ish.
92. You also know that Narnia is a name of a Swedish Christian progressive metal band, not just the place which C.S. Lewis writes about.
93. You believe that mixing hip-hop with Christian death or UnBlack metal is possible, since Frank's Enemy & Kekal did it.
94. You also envision of Metal Praise & Worship sessions at your church, just like what Sons Of Thunder plays.
95. You always grab a straw after ordering a meal at Jollibee (Jollibee is Philippines' answer to McDonald's) & then raise it up for everyone to see, & then you growl, "STRAWS OF THE MEGILLOOOTTTHHH!!!" & then perform an air-guitar to the already irritated people around you.
96. You're playing with your three-year old brother wherein you chase him with your "bloody" (actually it's tomato ketchup) claws (with matching "witch" claws from a witch costume set given to you more than a decade ago by someone) while growling, "CLAWS OF THE MEGILLOOOTTTHHH!!!".
97. You know that drummers get the major workout in gigs.
98. You thought Encryptor was the bomb.
99. Your composed lyrics must be extremely complex & very very poetic.
100. You've e-mailed & begged Extol to come into your place & perform their face-melting metal music.
101. You've given all your Korn, Slipknot, & Limp Bizkit CDs to your sister or you displayed them already in your garage sale at a very very low price to get rid of them as soon as possible.
102. Ashen Mortality is also an OK Christian doom metal band for you.
103. You insist that Unblack metal is musically different than all that "seckie junk."
104. Drugs , Sex, & Alcohol are not UnBlack metal.
105. You're bein judged by Christian conservatives & fundies as a drug addict, because you admire "Devil's music." Because many drug addicts according to them listen to Metal music...
Well, that's all for now...

Vi de udødelige inviterer dere til å slå dere sammen med oss.

2006-05-22T02:50:00.000-07:00

Yup. The Norwegian translation for "We the immortal invite you to join us." It is also featured in the cover of Horde's album (the one I mentioned previously). What can I say? Another June will pass again within this feeble body of mine & just thinking all the work bein piled again at me. I just hope that God will help me see through this things, amidst of all the troubles & the pains I will go through. So why the title of this entry? I would just like to share that we believers have also the same troubles as with everyone. It's just we have a different view of things. Yup. & why "immortal"? It's because of the promise God gave to us in the book of Romans. To believe in Him means to live forever in His presence. What joy will it bring a man to experience eternal blissfulness. & so I remember another song from No Innocent Victim called "Calm Before The Storm". I remember hearing a message from the radio that amidst all our troubles that we're experiencing, something is coming that is far worse than what we're experiencing today. I mean, Jesus said in Matthew 24 that we should see to it that we're not alarmed. All of our little troubles in life plus the worsening conditions of this country (Philippines) will be nothing compared to the trouble that is coming. But what else is better? God is far greater than any circumstances that befall us. God's love is much greater. So there. God bless everyone. May God always guide you all in all your undertakings... this is the Northern Wolf signing-off... hee hee... zzz...

Horde's 1994 album Hellig Usvart: One of the Pioneers of Christian Unblack Metal

2006-05-16T07:59:00.000-07:00

Track listing:

1. A Church Bell Tolls Amidst The Frozen Nordic Winds
2. Blasphemous Abomination Of The Satanic Pentagram
3. Behold, The Rising Of The Scarlet Moon
4. Thine Hour Has Come
5. Release & Clothe The Virgin Sacrifice
6. Drink From The Chalice Of Blood
7. Silence The Blasphemous Chanting
8. Invert The Inverted Cross
9. An Abandoned Grave Bathes Softly In The Falling Moonlight
10. Crush The Bloodied Horns Of The Goat
11. Weak, Feeble, Dying Antichrist
12. The Day Of Total Armageddon Holocaust

Yup. & this is not an oxymoron. The music that this band plays is more grim than Darkthrone, Bathory, Burzum, & Gorgoroth combined, in my opinion. What's best with this band is that the grimness that they show in their music does not mean hatred to people, or to society, but the grimness they show in some of their songs is all about sharing to the world the imminent judgement that comes to the whole world, & also the imminent destruction that satan (& all his followers, even those who don't believe in God) will experience. This is one of the pioneers (Kekal plays christian unblack metal since 1990 in the Indonesian underground music scene) of the scene, & it's good to know that the man behind this band (Yup, that's right. This is a one-man band) stood up really for what he believed in, amidst the death threats that he was facing because of his "making Black metal clean". The man's name is Anonymous, & he's originally from Mortification & Paramaecium, one of the pioneers of the Christian Death Metal & Christian Doom Metal, respectively. It's really very sad, too, to know that their CD's very expensive in Amazon (as if I had the money to buy one). Well, this is really a gem not only in Christian circles but also in secular circles as well... So there. Ha ha. Hellig Usvart (Norwegian for Holy Unblack) to everyone!!! God Bless!!! Let's invert all of the inverted crosses we see... for He will be forever be glorious & victorious!!! Let's stop the lies this world dictates to us!!!

Crashdog rulez!!!

2006-05-10T06:44:00.000-07:00

First of all... my first entry in English. I got tired of translating the others because there are almost twelve of them & I've got no time to work em out. I'm really busy with the physical biochemistry thing at school & then I came across Crashdog... My first word after listening to "Voice of Defiance" was... Wow. Yup. & to think that I'm also listening to The Deal, Hanover Saints, Flatfoot 56, One-21, Headnoise, Officer Negative, Smiley Kids (which I came across when I was browsin some bands in MySpace), Huntingtons, Shop 11 Phoenix, Lugnut, & The CafFiends. What's funny is that they never made it to mainstream. They sound like Sex Pistols, or Anti-Flag in some of their songs, but I think because they're a Christian punk they never became big like some of their secular counterparts. Oh well. Most of us here in the Philippines haven't even seen them in person, & that's too bad. Well... as I've said in my previous posts (those are in Filipino)... I've always dreamt about starting a JPUSA-like revival here... or having an old skool christian punk band with some reggae tones similar to that of The Dingees. It really sux to know that years ago they broke up, & I don't know whether there'll be Crashdog again, Greetings to you, Crashdog, from the Philippines. Wherever you are now, I'll be prayin for a new album from you. Come & see the Philippines for sometime. God Bless you guys... Keep rockin & keep the fire burnin... he he

Summer kay saya este kay pagod pala... tee hee. What else?

2006-04-25T20:43:00.000-07:00

Sorry for all the guys there who want to view my blogsite in English. Maybe you'll either: 1. See my whole blogsite in English later on, or 2. I'll create a new blog in Blogdrive.com which has English entries on it. So there. Now, T.T.T. (Talking Tagalog Time). Sobrang nakakapagod itong summer na ito. At bakit? Binubudburan ka ng super-daming Hand-outs na sa huli ay hindi mo matatapos lahat. May mga gusto kang gawin pero sinisigawan ka ng iyong Problem set ng, "HOY!!! NIKKO!!! Bakit ka pa rin nagpro-procrastinate diyan!!! Nandito ako!!! Answer me!!!" Kailangan ka pa ring gumising ng maaga para sa una mong klase. Ewan ko ba. Feeling ko parang hindi na napahinga yung utak ko, pati na katawan ko. Hindi pa natatapos diyan. Kapag walang pasok, diretso sa tindahan at haharapin ang mga nakasimangot na customer na nagsasabi ng "Hoy, isang kilong purina nga." Ewan ko ba, maybe it's just because I've never talked to God in days, nagiging weekly na naman ang Quiet time ko. Maybe ito ang nararamdaman ng mga nakakalimot sa kanya. Nagiging drained sa kahit na ano'ng bagay. & then you start on doing things which you're not supposed to do, because if you did it, you sinned. One more sign from God na alalahanin siya: I was just listening last night to DZAS 702 when the program "Heartline" started to share some questions & answers which really answered some of the troubles I face until now. What was amazing is sunud-sunod yung mga tanong at sagot na nakasagot sa mga struggles ko ngayon. Feeling ko, si God parang, "Hey, son, did you forget me already? Am I still your first priority, or are you already obsessed with your struggles to the point you're already forgetting me?" Well, maybe it's time for me to go back to my roots - to know Him again who's our creator, & to love Him again more than anything else. I feel dry, maybe because I forgot that He's the living water. Maybe it's time to go back & be reconciled just like the prodigal son did. Hanggang dito na lang muna. May God bless us all in all our undertakings. Au revoir.

J.C.H.C. Punks! Unite! Hellig Usvart! Punx For Christ!!!

2006-04-16T22:05:00.000-07:00

Oi! Para ito sa lahat. Meron ba kayong mga nararamdamang mga burden, lalung-lalo sa Philippine Music scene? Wala lamang... just envisioning (& also one of my petition kay Lord) yung magkaroon ng isang official Christian rock scene sa Philippines... yung hindi isolated sa secular market na parang sa Amerika... yung parang significant na talaga yung amount ng mga banda... Gusto kong mag-start ng isang hardcore oi! punk band na kapantay ng Underground JCHC scene sa Amerika... dahil una, walang katunog na genre ito ngayon (pwera na lamang kung nasa Pilipinas ka ngayon at buhay ka nung 1978-1990 wherein buhay na buhay ang old school punk rock sa Pilipinas) at pangalawa, yung burden na maiparating ang Good News sa milyon-milyong mga kabataan na sobrang na-infest ng media at ng fads ng panahong ito. Ang maging wasted. Gusto kong mag-start ng movement na magfufuel ng parang sa Amerika... yung Jesus Movement which paved the way for Jesus People USA & there came the Christian versions of punk subgenres... Undercover, Altar Boys, & then Crashdog tsaka Officer Negative. Asteeg. Naipapakita lamang dito na walang boundaries ang pagproclaim ng Word sa ibang tao. Tandaan din natin itong isang quotation na nakuha ko sa site ng United Liberation Front: "Needless to say, the term 'punk' does not have very many positive meanings to it. Don't let punk dictate how you live or how you think. Live by Christ's standards, not punk's."

After a month & several days without blogging... Here's what happened.

2006-03-06T17:56:00.000-08:00

Yup. I'm very preoccupied with a lot of things. How I miss posting something in my Blogspot account, he he. Grabe ang daming nangyari sa loob ng isang buong buwan (at ilang araw). Maraming inspirasyon, pati rebelasyon. Maraming nangyari sa bansa, pati na rin sa mga sikat na tao. Maraming trahedya, ngunit naipapakita dito sa mga nangyari ang muli pa rin nating pagbangon. Siguro mas maganda kung ito'y nagsisimula sa sarili, at hindi na natin hihintayin pa ang iba na magbago bago pa tayo. Sa aking buhay naman ay napuno ng lubos na prokrastinasyon ang karamihan sa aking oras, na dapat ay iginugugol ko sa maraming bagay. Sigurado ako na ang isa sa mga dahilan ng pagkalugmok ng ating bansa ay ako, ngunit kahit sino naman sa ating mga Pilipino ay responsable din sa mga nangyayari ngayon sa ating bayan. Ngunit isang bagay lang siguro ang maituturing kong isang napaka-significant na rebelasyon sa akin nitong buong buwan na lumipas, na ang pagmamahal pala'y hindi isang pakiramdam. Ito'y isang commitment; may kahalong responsibilidad. May mga bagay na kailangang isakripisyo o ibigay dun sa isang bagay o tao para ito'y masasabing pagmamahal. Parang sa pagmamahal natin sa ating Panginoon. Huwag nating kakalimutan na bigyan palagi natin ang ating sarili ng oras na magkaroon ng tinatawag na "bonding session" sa Maykapal. Magiging napaka-fulfilling ng isang buong buhay na talagang nasusubaybayan ng Panginoon. O sige hanggang dito na lamang muna, Sign-off muna ako...

Mga geeky insights pero kapupulutan ng sense...

2006-02-06T17:43:00.000-08:00

"What is ε0?" Eto ang naging diskusyon namin dati nung ako'y nag-tetake pa ng Physics 72. Eto ay yung constant sa interaksyong elektrostatiko sa kahit na anong bagay sa sangkalawakan. Ang consant na ito ay matatagpuan sa denominator ng pormulang nagbibigay ng puwersang elektrostatiko. Naalala ko tuloy ang nabasa ko sa isang magasing pansiyentipiko (nakalimutan ko na yung pangalan) na ang pagsukat ng mga physicist sa consant na ito habang lumilipas ang panahon. Lumalabas na ito'y bumababa (although negligible ang amount), ngunit maitatanong niyo, "Ano'ng significance nito sa aming lahat?". Well, MARAMING implikasyon ito. Unang-una since ito'y natatagpuan sa denominator, ang pagliit nito'y may kaakibat na pagtaas ng puwersang elektrostatiko sa kahit ano'ng bagay. Ano'ng ibig sabihin nito? Darating ang panahon na mag-cocompress ang lahat ng bagay sa iisang point- ang singularity. Baka siguro isa na ito sa mga magiging causes sa sinasabi ng Scripture na "This world will soon come to pass..." Ano pa ba? yung tinatawag na ΔSuniverse, o yung change in entropy ng buong kalawakan. Alam niyo ba na ito'y positive? Ano'ng ibig sabihin nito? Ang entropy kasi ay isang quantity na nagsusukat ng "chaos" sa lahat ng forms ng matter. Lahat ng nag-caucause ng init ay may katumbas na positive ΔSuniverse, kahit na ang refrigerator na nagpapalamig ng mga pagkain ay merong naidadagdag sa ΔSuniverse. Ano'ng implikasyon pa nito? Darating sa punto na magiging kritikal na ang laki ng ΔSuniverse, ...at sasabog na ang lahat kapag nangyari iyon. Wala lamang... naalala ko tuloy yung sinabi ni Franklin Graham sa luneta na, "Now's the time for salvation, now's the time to come back to Christ (paraphrased).".

Busy week next week... & then the composition... zzz...

2006-01-21T05:30:00.000-08:00

OK. Ngayon lang ulit ako nag-post after a week (nga ba?). Oh well. Ang dami kong naka-schedule na gagawin next week. Nandiyan na ang limang laboratory reports sa Chem 127.1 plus yung mga data para sa Comm II. Syempre 'di mawawala 'yung dalawang exam next week (actually quiz lang yung sa monday sa Comm II, & then the first departmental sa Chem 127). Meron pa'ng ipapasang DNA recombination technique sa Biochem 121, plus yung tatlong journals for the seminar sa Biochem 198. Hindi ko pa sure kung kailan yung Chem 157 exam namin... Tapos may reporting pa sa PE 1 sa Friday at kami pa nung PolSci guy ang unang magre-report. Pagkatapos may DPSM week pa, plus yung composition pa para kay Kuya Dave... hayyy... Sana talaga matulungan ako ni Lord sa mga endeavors ko... Baka dahil sa kakulangan sa QT... Sa ngayon, wala lang naman... ini-rerelax ko pa lamang ang sarili ko plus naghahanda na rin for next week. Dapat pala mas nabibigyan natin ng pansin ang ating mga SL's para hindi tayo maging "down in the dumps" pagdating ng panahon. Maybe I'll start having the conversation (& yeah, the connection) with the Father again... Maybe because I'm prioritizing a lot of things rather than the One I needed most & should have the "bonding time" with. Baka eto ang ipinararating Niya sa akin. Maybe I forgot to ask for help. Maybe I forgot to ask for His spirit. Maybe I became selfish. What's left for me is that I call on Him & be the captain of my life again. So yeah, maybe that's it. Hanggang dito na lang muna sa posting na ito.

Hindi maganda ang nararamdaman, pero OK lang...

2006-01-12T05:43:00.000-08:00

Well... ewan ko ba ngayon kung ano'ng virii specie ang kumapit sa akin para ako'y magkaroon ng extreme colds ngayon. Hirap ngayong huminga, ngunit I keep on moving pa rin. Kahit na under the weather yung nararamdaman ko ngayon masaya pa rin ako dahil sa maraming bagay... unang-una na diyan yung successful na pagsisimula ng CG namin (CG means cell group) at ang pagiging active ng mga bagong tao... & also ang pagdami ng tao na sumasali sa EsVee. Nawa'y patuloy na gamitin ni Lord ang EsVee sa pag-share ng Kanyang word; sa pag-eevangelize ng ibang tao. Nandiyan din ang pa ang pagdating ng mga matagal ko na'ng hindi nakikita na mga tao... sila Kuya Erwin, Tariratski, si Ids... at pati ang pagbisita ng mga IV pipz from other campuses, katulad na lamang ni Herald (na ka-SG or small group ni Ka Peryo nung nasa LC-DC pa siya). Ano pa ba? Isa-isa kong nakikilala sa aming org kung sino ang kaparehas ko ng hilig sa... syempre (ano pa nga ba?) sa Rock CCM. Andiyan sila Faith, Zai, & Anniefair na na-impluwensiyahan ko ng Relient K, si Ida na kapwa ko Switchfoot fan, si JC na ikinagulat ko na nakikinig ng mga bandang katulad ng Number One Gun, Acceptance, Emery, Mae, at Anberlin. Also din si Herald kanina na nakikinig ng isang local na Against-The-Flow band na Battery at katulad ko na naka-diskubre din ng Rock Hardcore CCM. Ewan ko ba, pero kahit mukhang malala na 'yung sitwasyon ko ay ever thankful (& grateful) pa rin ako kay God... at masaya pa rin. Sana magpatuloy itong fire na ito... sana rin magtuloy-tuloy pa 'yung quiet time na binibigay pa rin niya sa akin ever since.

"Always Under Construction" at ang mga ibang surpresa

2006-01-11T01:20:00.000-08:00

Eto na naman ako... nasa stage na ako ng pagsasa-ayos ng lahat ng mga bagay na related sa akin which could take ten years? (Ha ha hindi naman siguro) Oh well, ganun naman, e. We're always under construction - parang sa tunay na buhay. Balik uli ako sa aking mga ka-adikan... Dati (siguro mga one year ago na) nung pag-check ko ng Friendster account ko... na-try kong hanapin sa buong Friendster kung sinu-sino ang mga nakikinig sa mga bandang kinahihiligan ko nung mga panahon na iyon (actually hanggang ngayon pa rin naman) na nag-pe-play ng heavy stuff pero merong Christian elements... tin-ry ko muna yung "Demon Hunter" sa Music preferences. Aba! Nakakita ako ng anim na tao (including 'yung sarili ko) which means sa lahat ng may Friendster account (na most of them ay Filipinos), anim lang kami ang nakikinig ng Demon Hunter. Sumunod naman Living Sacrifice... Aba! Apat lang kami. Magkaiba pa yung mga fans ng Demon Hunter sa mga fans ng Living Sacrifice. Doon sa latter na band puro mga old school yung hilig nung mga taong may preference doon sa band. Sa pangkalahatan... hindi umaabot lagpas sa sampu yung mga nakikinig ng Heavy Rock CCM, merong naalala pa nga ako one time e... March yata 'yun of last year... nung pag-type ko sa Music Preferences ng "Far-Less"... Aba! Ako lang ang lumabas sa search results ng Friendster. Nakakagulat ang pagbabago ng panahon... ngayon kapag pumupunta ako sa site ng Against The Flow ay meron na akong nakikitang "Of The Son" o kaya naman meron nang mga taong nakakakilala sa mga bandang katulad ng One-21 at Officer Negative. Astig talaga si Lord at binigyan niya ang Philippines ng isang show na nasabi na nag-sho-showcase ng ganoong genre ng CCM. Hindi naman sa may biases ako sa mga genres (actually I also listen to some Avalon & Stacie Orrico songs, also KJ-52) ngunit medyo nakalakihan ko na yung mga heavy stuff... Wala lang actually... na-amaze lang ako sa mga pagbabago sa rock music scene... Unti-unti ng pinapasok ng mga Rock CCM bands ang mainstream rock music scene... Unang-una 'yung Jars Of Clay, tapos DC Talk, tapos naman Switchfoot, then Lifehouse, Sixpence None The Richer, tapos biglang umarangkada 'yung P.O.D., Thousand Foot Krutch, UnderOath, The Afters, Acceptance, at lately, Anberlin... He he... hanggang dito na lang po muna...

Test

2006-01-07T06:45:00.000-08:00

Test

A Tiring Day Supposedly, But Resisted By A Dose of Ginseng

2006-01-06T07:30:00.000-08:00

Nakakapagod itong araw na ito... fulfilling din. Although I failed to have a quiet time this morning, Marami pa ring realizations na dumating sa akin: Unang-una hwag maging sobrang panicky. Nangyari sa akin kanina ito... Mula sa pagpreprepare para sa isang departmental exam sa Biochem 131. Ineexpect ko na gagawa kami ng mga Cleland Diagrams ng ilang mga reactions sa iba't-ibang reaction pathways. 'Yun pala pinasagot lang pala sa amin mga simple mechanisms, given reactants & products na. Nasayang tuloy yung mga oras na dapat ini-spend ko for a total conversation with Him. But even though sometimes we stray away, He's always there for us... waiting for us to come back to Him. I'm so glad nakashare ako ng ilang Relient K songs (naka-impluensiya ako he he) & what's good about it is some of the songs speak about the realities that some of us encounter when we walk in the faith. One of them is mentioned in a song by them called "I So Hate Consequences". It speaks about the absurdity of running away from the mistakes that we've done, because we're still afraid to face the consequences. It also speaks about yung infinity pa rin ng love Niya sa atin, even though we've fallen into a pit, so long as we go back to Him & repent & make Him the captain of our lives. In short, even though palagi tayong nagkakamali willing pa rin naman Siyang magpatawad. Bibigyan nga lang tayo ng punishments, to learn from our mistakes, because His love for us is too much, we're even more worthy than a thousand sparrows. Kung baga sa isang magulang, gusto Niya yung best para sa ating lahat, 'di ba? Because we are His children, His creation. & we are created not just to satisfy ourselves with the ultimate delights of this world, but only just to glorify Him. We Exist only for Him. Naalala ko tuloy yung isang kanta na naging my LSS sa Against The Flow sa NU -- It's "Even When" by Seven Places. The chorus goes like this -- "Even when my eyes are dry, even when my soul is tired even when my hands are heavy, I will lift them up to You It's not about how I feel, oh Lord I am here for You. I exist for you." OK yun lang muna... The Northern Wolf is signing-off...

It's already nighttime... but I still have a lot of things to do

2006-01-05T07:41:00.000-08:00

This is the third blog I created & still I really have no idea on how I could work things... Oh well, just keep posted. I don't know if this blog server ever allowed html editing... Whew! That's all for now folks.

Top 107 Songs of this year na kina-LSSan ko. Gumaya lamang sa NU 107 he he

2006-01-01T19:11:00.000-08:00

Song, & then Artist.
1. "Violence" - Living Sacrifice
2. "Blue 42" - Haste The Day
3. "Mortal Stomp" - Ultimatum
4. "Grace for Succession" - Extol
5. "Revolt" - The Deal
6. "Runaway" - One-21
7. "Carried Away" - SonicFlood
8. "Alive" - P.O.D.
9. "Ancient of Days" - The Insyderz
10. "Stars" - Switchfoot
11. "Invitation to Understanding" - MxPx
12. "The Moon Is Down" - Further Seems Forever
13. "82" - Lugnut
14. "Be My Escape" - Relient K
15. "Reinventing your Exit" - UnderOath
16. "Run" - Kutless
17. "Ocean Floor" - Audio Adrenaline
18. "Since I Met You" - DC Talk
19. "Five Candles (you Were There)" - Jars Of Clay
20. "Here's My Hand" - The Elms
21. "Don't Be Like The World" - Fire Engine Red
22. "Stormy Hill" - Fold Zandura
23. "Do you Know?" - Dogs of Peace
24. "Who Am I" - Casting Crowns
25. "I Have Seen It Where It Grows" - Demon Hunter
26. "Mayday" - Subseven
27. "Where The Love Lasts Forever" - Hillsong Youth United
28. "The Breakfast Song" - Newsboys
29. "Light A Match" - The Beautiful Mistake
30. "Salutations" - Hanover Saints
31. "Now's The Time" - Slick Shoes
32. "Called" - Antiskeptic
33. "The Dreamclub Murders" - Dead Poetic
34. "To Hell With The Devil" - Stryper
35. "Savior" - Skillet
36. "Different" - Acceptance
37. "Paperthin Hymn" - Anberlin
38. "Breathe" - Sixpence None The Richer
39. "you & me" - Lifehouse
40. "Brotherhood" - Flatfoot 56
41. "Pipe Dreams" - Project 86
42. "Eye of the Storm" - Blindside
43. "This Is A Call" - Thousand Foot Krutch
44. "Friend of Mine" - Value Pac
45. "Failure On My Lips" - Beloved
46. "For Crying Out Loud" - The 77s
47. "California" - Hawk Nelson
48. "Everything About You" - Sanctus Real
49. "Glory Defined" - Building 429
50. "Seaside" - Ace Troubleshooter
51. "Scorched Earth Policy" - Far-Less
52. "My Exit, Unfair" - Mewithoutyou
53. "Dead By Dawn" - Showbread
54. "Dictatorship Vs. Democracy" - Staple
55. "Tipping The Scales" - No Innocent Victim
56. "My Salvation" - Twiceborn
57. "Take It Back" - Seventh Star
58. "Sick City" - Jesus Wept
59. "Understand" - Jeremy Camp
60. "Cornerstone" - Day of Fire
61. "I Can Only Imagine" - MercyMe
62. "Crazy Mary" - FM Static
63. "Why Can't I Be On MTV?" - Calibretto 13
64. "Wolves In Sheep's Clothing" - Sinai Beach
65. "10,000 miles" - Craig's Brother
66. "Clenched Fists of Desperation" - Anam Cara
67. "Reborn" - Hammertown
68. "Dead To The World" - Officer Negative
69. "Kill & Deceive" - Figure Four
70. "Promise" - Spoken
71. "Where Moth & Rust Destroy" - Tourniquet
72. "Welcome to North" - Immortal Souls
73. "Day of Defeat" - Point of Recognition
74. "King" - Tree63
75. "Walls" - Emery
76. "Shall We Dance?" - Bloodlined Calligraphy
77. "Conscience In A Cave" - Dogwood
78. "Unveil" - Forgotten Arrival
79. "94 Hours" - As I Lay Dying
80. "Control" - Mute Math
81. "The Fosters" - Cool Hand Luke
82. "Stars Between Stations" - Names Without Numbers
83. "Caroline" - Seventh Day Slumber
84. "Even When" - Seven Places
85. "For Now We See In A Mirror, Dimly, But Then Face to Face" - Symphony In Peril
86. "God Gave Rock & Roll To you" - Petra
87. "Capistrano" - The CafFiends
88. "Friendly Advice" - Hangnail
89. "Grace Like Rain" - Todd Agnew
90. "Cursed Fires of Gehenna" - Sorrowstorm
91. "Living Water" - Narnia
92. "My Evil Plan To Save The World" - Five Iron Frenzy
93. "M.P.G." - Headnoise
94. "Captivated" - Slow Coming Day
95. "Real-Life Motion Picture" - The Spirit That Guides Us
96. "Scrolls of the Megilloth" - Mortification
97. "Enraged" - Frank's Enemy
98. "Dialogue With A Question Mark" - The Chariot
99. "Memphis Will Be Laid To Waste" - Norma Jean
100. "Breath of the Black Muse" - Zao
101. "Weapon of Choice" - Foreknown
102. "Never Alone" - BarlowGirl
103. "Shut Up & Play" - The Orange County Supertones
104. "All In A Year" - Comeback Kid
105. "Beautiful Love" - The Afters
106. "Our Finest Hour" - Philmore
107. "Anthem" - The Young & The Useless
he he... yun lang...

Wala lang... balik na naman sa una.

2005-12-29T05:44:00.000-08:00

He he... as usual. Nakakainis kasi yung blogger na ito, hindi ko na mapasok yung una. Oh well. Hanggang dito na lang muna. Ang hirap talaga na magsimula ulit- para itong buhay. Sa una parang ok na lahat pagkatapos yun pala everything is garbage. Totoo pala talaga yung sinabi sa book of Ecclesiastes, "Everything is meaningless", he he. Oh well ulit. Sometimes you really need to start all over again, even if it's so painful. Start all over again, don't put old on new wineskins, sabi nga sa scripture. Then, you can put new wine on new wineskins. The next time siguro akong mag-log-in dito maglalagay na rin ako ng mga views ko dito, & also mga lyrics ng mga songs. May mga i-popost din akong mga audio files (if possible?). Ano pa ba? Rick Warren's book inspired me this whole christmas vacation. Lalo na yung mga chapters tungkol sa temptation. Really hit me hard. A must-read. The Purpose-Driven Life. Although marami ng nakabasa nito at patuloy na kini-criticize yung libro, I recommend this to everyone. Grabe. Sobrang uplifting, it renewed/refreshened my interest in having a quiet time. Sobrang thankful ako kay Lord kasi binigyan niya ako ng tiyuhin na magreregalo sa akin nung book na iyon, & also yung patuloy na pag-provide niya sa akin ng mga needs ko. At alam niya rin ang lahat ng iyon. Amazing! God is truly amazing!